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dope stuff. refreshing to see a gay son on a site for thought daughters.

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this is very beautiful 🤍

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I needed to leave a comment because I felt connected with every word of this essay. I used to be romantic and i'd like to think that i still am, but nowadays is so so difficult... the hurt also doesn't let me think in a romantic way anymore, at this point i'm just looking for evidence of how they are gonna betray me or leave like if nothing happened. Sometimes i just feel like it's all in my mind, so I convince myself that they don't really wanna pursue me in a romantic way, not even with feelings involved.

I loved how you described it, also, it's so well written, congratulations, it makes me wanna read more ❤️‍🩹

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Sep 3Liked by ft cald

"for someone like me who was groomed to believe that the use of my body was a prerequisite to affection" ugh you hit the nail on the head!!! loved this piece dearly

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Thank you so much AH

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Oh my god? At some points I had to stop reading because I felt deeply connected to your words. Ever since the last people I genuinely loved and cared about hurt me, I've been at grief with the romantic I used to be and no longer am. Thank you for making me feel seen ❤️‍🩹

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dude thank YOU. it’s a weird journey. not sure if i really even want to be a romantic again. i’m afraid of coming across as too jaded sometimes to my friends when talking about it.

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Right? For me it feels like I truly gave everything I had left in me and still things turned out the way they did. I might not be able to write about it but your essay certainly stirred something 🙂‍↔️ I hope you find your way back even if your outlook is different

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Aug 21Liked by ft cald

this was so good!

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this is so beautiful. it’s funny to sit here and feel like we’re at opposite ends of the table: i’m terrified of entering anything that has a chance of impermanence and you’re brave enough to take that leap. thank you for writing this 🤍

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Aug 16Liked by ft cald

the way you write about people and relationships is just so so insightful and authentic. loved this so much 🤍

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you’re the one who’s so fucking beautiful! this is so vivid and heartfelt. thank you for sharing.

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Aug 16Liked by ft cald

This was such a good read before going to sleep i love your writing and may you receive all the warmest love in the world

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Real and sad

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part two is more optimistic i swear

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Perhaps the most descriptive piece I've read about dating, loved it

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thank you so much!!!

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I really loved this <3

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❤️❤️❤️❤️

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sighhhh this is so well-written and makes so much sense🙇🏾‍♀️

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very much appreciate it thank you :)

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i remember u reading the part about pumpkins and gingerbread houses to me months ago and it still felt like a knife to the chest

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THANK YOU 😭😭 it still hurts me to know i was that down bad

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DUDE!!!

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AHH

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